Unsugar Coated Motherhood

What Happens When The Adrenalin Runs Out? #BTBY

Most of you will know that my book went on sale this week. Friday was official launch day and it couldn’t have gone better. I had the day off work and the kids were looked after for six hours, which meant I had all that time to promote the hell out of it. The blogging community rallied together for me, re-tweeting and sending tweets and messages of encouragement all day. The same was happening all over Facebook with my RL friends. It was quite simply incredible. When I looked at the Amazon charts for the last time on Friday night, Become the Best You sat pretty at #47 in the Self Help section.

As you can imagine I was thrilled, and celebrated with a couple of glasses of champers with my fab hubby. It knocked us for six though and we didn’t even manage to finish the bottle. Oh how times have changed! Between being off the sauce for over five months, and not sleeping more than a couple of hours at a time recently, we went to bed rather woozy. The night that followed was a typical one, baby up about four or five times to feed.

The weekend didn’t start well in my house. 5yo was up at the crack of dawn and woke everyone else up by having a tantrum about not going back to bed (oh the irony). The morning that followed was hard work – we had three very needy kids on our hands who wanted different kinds of attention. The afternoon was better, 5yo had a party, hubby took 2yo swimming and I spent over an hour chatting to lovely neighbours.

By evening though baby boy had come down with a nasty cold. I gave him an extra long ‘last’ feed for two hours, after which I could hardly string a sentence together. I was absolutely shattered. Thankfully a massive pot of pulled pork and veggies had been in the oven all day so I didn’t have to worry about cooking. I went to bed before 9pm, and I sent up a little prayer to the gods of sleep that we would at least be granted a few solid hours, as it had been a while and was desperately needed.

Unfortunately the opposite of what we needed actually happened. My poor wee man was awake for the first time at 10:20pm and up and down like a yoyo afterwards. All night long. I’m talking every 20-30 minutes, and in between feeding he was screaming the house down or sneezing big snot flumes or vomming all over the marital bed. Probably the worst night we’ve had with him, on the back of being so exhausted I barely managed to walk up the stairs to go to bed last night. He hasn’t been sick again (touch wood) and I can only hope that the cold is short lived.

As for me, I was broken first thing this morning. I am no stranger to sleep deprivation but this level of it got the better of me. I feel bad whinging because I should be feeling amazing, on top of the world and full of excitement about my book. Perhaps I’m coming down with lurgies as well which is why I’m feeling low. Or perhaps I’ve been running on adrenalin for so long now, the crash and burn was just inevitable?

Today we don’t have plans apart from going to the farmers market and taking the kids to the park. I’ll take it super easy, be kind to myself and not expect too much from any member of the family. There’s lots of good stuff coming up over the next few weeks, and lots to be happy about, need to keep that at the front of my mind! Thanks for listening 🙂

What are your thoughts? Do you feel low a few days after a massive high? How well do you cope without your sleep? I’d love to hear from you in the comments section…

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  1. mummytries says:

    It’s such a killer isn’t it! I’m sure it’ll all be over soon enough and we’ll be wistfully longing after the baby days xx

  2. Firstly, congratulations on the release of your first book!
    I am in my 17th month of having very little sleep so I really sympathise with you. It’s always hard when you’ve had a few decent nights and then the bad ones knock you for six again!
    Thanks for linking up with #SundayStars

  3. Hope you didn’t get it and you’re all feeling better now.

    Well done on the book launch – those are impressive figures!

    I think the come down is pretty normal – you spent a LONG time on the book and now it’s out there and you’re left waiting for other people to get their eyes on it which takes time etc.

    Keep at it. There’s always a moment of brilliance waiting 😉 xx

  4. Ah hon sounds rough! Sorry baby is so poorly and man it sounds like you need a break! A bit of a dip after such an amazing high is inevitable I guess but the fates (and children) really were against you at the weekend! I hope things improved and you got some rest? Xx #thetruthabout

  5. I’ve found writing to be a real roller coaster with frequent highs and lows. Poor you with the children needing a lot too, our weekend was quite similar – different children awake different nights with different ailments! As for sleep – I have a five year old who has slept badly ever since she was born! I’ve just discovered audio books played to her on my old phone help her stay in her bed at night (even if she isn’t sleeping!). Often it feels like the world needs to stop spinning so we can have a break, I’m not sure that ever happens though : ) Well done again on your book and enjoy the high!

  6. I hope you’ve had a chance to recuperate a bit now since Saturday Reneé – it really does sound like the most challenging day ever! Congratulations on having such success with the book so quickly though – I’ve got my copy I just need to find the time to read it – life is quite manic at the moment and the husband and I recently had the ‘you’re blogging too much’ conversation so I feel like I’m on a bit of knife edge trying to balance it all now. I have to say if I was suffering from sleep deprivation the way you are I would be barely able to function and would probably be down the mental health clinic! You will look back on all this one day and be astonished at what you achieved – I think everyone who knows the background to the writing of your book is in awe of your determination to succeed with something you had set your mind on. Thanks for linking up with The Truth about… too Xxx #thetruthabout

  7. I think it’s totally understandable for you to feel a bit flat after such a major adrenalin rush! You’ve been working so hard to get to this stage. And with next to no sleep as well it’s all just a bit much to cope with… I hope last night was better. And huge congratulations again on releasing your book. I’m a couple of chapters in and it’s great so far! You totally deserve a bit of time to relax, if you can manage to squeeze that in somewhere… xx

  8. Oh Renee, what a crash!… I don’t think I’ve ever experienced sleep deprivation quite like you seem to have it. And I certainly don’t think I’d cope well with another newborn! It does sound like your adrenaline has run out and your natural high has gone AWOL but I’m sure it’s short-lived and whats more, it’s so worth it x #whatimwriting

  9. Oh Renee what a tough few days! I don’t think you should be feeling guilty about whinging – it’s been tough. You’ve had so much going on that your body has taken the opportunity for rest. It’s just a shame you (or the baby) weren’t ready for it. It won’t be long before you’re back, enjoying your fabulous new journey as a published author! Go You! 🙂

  10. I’m not at all surprised that you’re a bit broken! It’s been pretty full on for you, and then to have a weekend of sleep hell, well, I think that would break the best of us! I don’t do well with broken sleep, at all, thankfully my husband copes better, otherwise there are times when our household would have fallen apart… Hope wee man is feeling better and that things are back on more of an even keel. Hugs xx

  11. Oh hun, I have just seen this post (didn’t get the email notification – all playing up on my laptop I think). I hope little man is better now and you are back to feeling like yourself. I hate those down days, but we all have them. Sending you loads of positive thoughts. xxx

  12. Yes I do think this ‘low’ patch is quite common. Especially after something so epic as writing your first book! It’s probably taken everything out of you too, more than you realised. Poor baby, I do hope he gets well soon – for your sake as much as his! x

  13. Glad Friday went well. Had a crazy weekend and haven’t stopped since, so will definitely be catching up on the book soon. The lurgy is common this time of year. It sounds like your little one had a nasty bout of it and when you get so little sleep like that, it is horrendous. I imagine it is worse coming down from the high that you were on too.

    I had hardly any sleep last night too, so I can totally sympathise. Let’s just say that I don’t function well, coffee is a must but even that doesn’t help, dinner will be the simplest meal I can manage and I will be crawling up to bed along with the kids at 7pm.

  14. mummytries says:

    They have a sixth sense don’t they! Baby’s cold has progressed to the thick green snot stage, so at least it’s all coming out. Hopefully he’ll be well again by Thursday (my work week is Thurs & Fri) xxx

  15. mummytries says:

    I wish! Another horrendous one unfortunately… just had to rock him to sleep in his buggy because he hasn’t napped all morning *oh the things we do* #thirdchildsyndrome xxx

  16. mummytries says:

    I know it’s a short phase and will pass quickly but my goodness it’s a killer isn’t it! Thanks for your lovely words and your brilliant review of the book. So pleased you enjoyed it xx

  17. mummytries says:

    It really is a marathon and being kind is definitely the order of the day after yet another sleep deprived night. Thanks for your lovely words xx

  18. I am terrible with sleep deprivation-really struggle with it. Unfortunately, my husband is the same so our house is an absolute nightmare if we have too much disturbed sleep! I think you deserve to be very kind to yourself indeed and not pile on the pressure of expectation too much-I know it’s a cliche, but life is a marathon, not a sprint xx

  19. Oh my goodness that sounds like it was quite a comedown after the high of finally getting your book published. I am not surprised you are exhausted – suspect the adrenaline rush was keeping you going and then for that to end in combination with a really awful night sounds very tough. My youngest has been poorly over the weekend and was waking every 45 minutes so I can really sympathise. Fortunately last night was much better. Glad you are trying to take it easy (as much as you can with little ones) and really hope you manage to get some sleep. Huge congratulations to you on your fab book too and doing so well on the Amazon charts x

  20. Just revisiting to say thanks for linking to #whatimwriting and I hope you’re feeling a bit better today and had a better night! Xxx

  21. Wow well firstly congratulations on the book, that’s brilliant! So sorry you had such a rough time afterwards though, I swear kids just know sometimes and make us pay for having a happy time!! I hope little one is better x

  22. mummytries says:

    Thanks so much Julia! Off to soft play this morning, and will be taking it much easier this week 🙂

  23. mummytries says:

    Thank you Maddy, for being my lovely cheerleader – I really appreciate it! It’s been such a roller coaster this week with baby’s sleep being in such dire straights… it will pass and it will be fine, but you’re right. I’m intending to slow down a bit and take it easier. Not going to get the book on any bestsellers lists but that’s fine. Off to soft play with the wee ones this morning (I usually write, but naps are becoming few and far between now) so will be having some time off. Just enjoying the opportunity to do this while the girls have a *very rate* lie in! Thanks again, love and hugs xxxxx

  24. Great news about your book, but the night that followed sounds hard going. There is being tired and there is massive scale sleep deprivation and you got the latter! ugh. Take it easy! #sundaystars

  25. It sounds like Friday was amazing so i’m thrilled for you about that but, oh, what an EXHAUSTING weekend! Don’t feel bad for whinging, in fact you’re not even whinging you’re just admitting how hard it is which you’re completely entitled to do! I’ve said before how amazed I am at your ability to keep going despite the sleep situation but it’s worth saying again – you are awesome! Honestly, to pull off writing and publishing a whole book this year is a staggering achievement. If you are having a bit of a crash and burn now then no wonder but I bet you’ll bounce back quickly (although if you don’t then fair enough!). You’re right to take it easy. You totally deserve it. Hope baby boy is better soon. lots of love xxxxx

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