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Dear Sad Mama, You Are Not Alone

Hey Sad Mama, I see you. I hear you. You are not alone, truly you aren’t. They say it’s good to talk, that a problem shared is a problem halved. They say we need to get out of our heads and put our mental health problems out there for all to see. They say we should tell anybody who cares about our feelings. That we should put them on the table and be explicit. Trouble is, the advice is getting a bit confusing. Unless we have people we can wholeheartedly rely on to help pull us out of our deep …

High Functioning Autism Through Polly’s Eyes

I wrote this piece because I wanted to try and convey what high functioning autism is like through Polly’s eyes. We sat together and read it, and I was fully expecting her to ask me to change some (most) of it. Instead she looked at me and said “mummy, I love it, it’s exactly how I feel.” Needless to say I ended up in floods of tears…  My name is Polly, and I’m almost nine years old. I look exactly the same as all the other kids my age, and I mostly act like them too. I’m not the same …

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When Your Eldest Child is Autistic

When your eldest child is autistic things don’t follow the standard format. You can’t rely on them to lead the way for your other kids, and some days, it hurts like hell. Oh I know what you’re thinking. That I should lower my expectations, and not put too many demands onto any of their shoulders (especially Polly’s). They’re just kids after all. Truthfully speaking, I do feel this way a lot of the time. We live in the real world though don’t we? And on the super challenging days not expecting anything and not being tempted to future gaze just isn’t …

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Home Educating Three Children Almost Broke Me but it’s Better than the Mainstream Schooling Alternative and I Wouldn’t Have Life Any Other Way

There is no denying that home educating three children is the hardest thing I’ve ever done (and I’ve had a colourful, interesting past) At this point in our lives though, I honestly would not have it any other way. I appreciate that this might sound like an oxymoron, so let me go back to the start and explain myself. I didn’t set out with the intention of home educating three children. In Sept 2013 my husband and I sent our eldest daughter Polly (who had turned four in the July) to school with good intentions, but she was failed miserably. Sh*t …

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How We Helped our Autistic Daughter Sleep Through the Night After Years of Severe Sleep Deprivation

If your child does not sleep through the night, you are going to love this article! Until very recently I was lucky to get four or five broken hours shut eye… Anyone who follows this blog will already know that severe sleep deprivation has been a major part of mine and hubby’s lives the entire time we’ve been parents. I’m not just talking about a few months here and there when the kids were tiny, I’m talking not having an entire week of unbroken sleep in over eight years. I’m sure most will agree that is a very long time. Prior …